Nope, I just couldn't help myself. Last night I decided to do nothing and just play guitar. It was lush.
I tried to learn Motorcycle Drive By again. It's a picking song whereas I'm a strummer but at the moment I have the first four chords down to a tee. I think the problem will not lie in learning to play them all, no, it will be remembering each different chord change and plucking pattern.
I'll make sure it becomes second nature eventually.
My fingers hurt lots though, after being absent from it for ages my fingers became all soft and fleshy like normal fingers. And on my other hand I have a bone splinter in it which I can't see or get out, I'm guessing my body will push it out itself eventually.
Today I discovered Johnny Cash's American Recordings, all six of 'em. They are marvelous to say the least. And it's a good step because I really want to delve into country music and the blues. Listening to him in the car today I had that excited feeling in my stomach and felt as if I was bursting at the seams with joy.
My evening out was lovely too, my gran's birthday so we went to see her again. I love this, going to see her all the time, just another in a long list of what has made this year beautiful. I made a cake, not just any old cake. This cake recipe has a little history too it. Back in the day Neighbours always used to have someone making a chocolate cake in each episode and when my gran lived in New Zealand she me someone who was somehow affiliated with Neighbours, either directly or indirectly and she happened to have the recipe that the show used. And so this cake recipe entered our family and I sure did i justice with my kitchen skills.
I've never been one for family bonds and such, family is just something that you have and it's there but the more stories I hear the more and more I feel proud to be part of it. And with our family there are so many people and crossing paths there is an endless supply of amazing stories.
I'm so excited about seeing Third Eye Blind again. Why can't I be a little more at ease? Because it's going to the best night of my life so far, and it will forever remain in the top five I would think. It'll probably go something like: wife, children, Third Eye Blind. Unless of course the kids are twats and I divorce the wife.
This year has really come to prove itself as the best year ever. I had no intentions or hopes for it when it was starting which is probably why I am loving everything so much. Everything is one pleasant surprise after another, some small and some huge.
I've also been thinking that I finally feel like myself. I feel like Dan, and I fit into every piece of me. There is nothing wrong with my past but I always felt as if I was doing things for other people with my knowledge of it or not. Or school, you do things there because you are told to do them. Now I do things because I want to do them, every choice is my own and I don't have to factor anyones feelings because my thoughts are all very selfish now. I think about me and what I want and where I want to end up.
I wont be as bold to say that for eighteen years I have been a shell of a person, even if at times it has felt that way, because I've always been me and everything lead to here. Just right now I feel incredibly happy and all this happiness is generated by yours truly.
Life is freakin' sweet, nay, my life is freakin' sweet!
And on that list, The Goo Goo Dolls would come in fourth.
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